Unbearable Pain: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with intense pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Tony Wong
Tony Wong

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